Thursday, 30 January 2014

Never say never

Hello earthlings (and possibly martians)! I am back!

About 2 weeks ago, I turned 21 years old. Everybody was asking me if I was celebrating my birthday and what I would do after I turn 21. I found myself kinda being a killjoy and shushing them to calm down. It's just another birthday after all. If you would like to know, I spent my 21st birthday on a plane with about 150 random strangers. Not really an ideal way to usher in my adulthood but I am not complaining...
To me, age is just a number and being a newly minted 21 years old woman (no longer a teenager nor child) is not a big deal. I am not dying to hit the clubs, savour some alcohol or go on random road trips. I did, however, spend quite a long time reflecting on my life thus far. They say age comes with wisdom and boy have I wised up... Well, I wouldn't say wise up per se but I have changed a lot...

1) I have learnt to take things easy
I am still a perfectionist by nature but I have stopped blaming myself when things that I cannot control happen anyway. For instance, I used to get really upset when I go out without an umbrella and it rains afterwards. Now, I think I would just be a bit bummed out but I'd accept it and wait for the rain to stop. (Not being poetic here but I think this analogy is pretty good!)

2) I am more comfortable being an introvert
Being an introvert is not a bad thing. I dont know why I had negative connotations associated with introversion when I was younger but I did. I tried to force myself to socialise and make trivial small talk with people that did not interest me. I tried to act like I was enjoying myself in crowded places when I was not. I did quite a lot of things but in the end, I found myself being very tired. It just drains my energy to deal with noise and strangers and chaos. I realised that wanting to be alone or with a few close friends/family members is not a bad thing. I like being comfortable. It makes me happier so that's that.

3) I may not want to have my own children before 31 years old.
Dont get me wrong. I love children. I just feel like looking after my own children and being responsible for them would be too stressful for me. That's why I want to spend more time improving and becoming a better person before investing time and effort on another person.

4) I would like to be a housewife someday
I do not know how to do some household chores but I want to learn. I guess I like the idea of cooking and cleaning and taking care of people. How cool is it to be responsible for your house's cleanliness and tidiness?

5) I love to travel... especially with certain people or by myself
Last year, I had the privilege to travel to Belfast and Barcelona+Granada. It was such a blast but I did not know why until I spent some time to mull over it. When I was younger, I did not really care who I was travelling with cause the thought of going overseas was mind-blowing!! My parents did not like travelling and only started travelling (mainly to the UK and some parts of Europe) when my sister went abroad to study. I enjoyed travelling with them. But I realised it was even more enjoyable when I travelled with certain people or by myself. I guess relaxing and being lost with people I love to hang out with/on my own is my cup of tea. I would rather spend $1,000 to go to a random place with my loved ones than $1 to a spectacular place with random friends. (well, assuming I can afford the $1000 to begin with)

6) This one is lame but... I think I have grown to like football.
I used to make fun of my father and friends for watching football in the wee hours and missing work/school the next day. It was just not worth it to me. But after watching a Chelsea match (fyi, I am not a fan. I just like some players in Chelsea), I was quite impressed. Oh, and I am probably biased but my favourite national team is Spain.
Feel free to judge me but I was glued to my laptop screen for an hour because of this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47yOv3MS20M


I have more to add but my brain is not letting me. I need to get some sleep now and continue this post later when I have the time to. Stay tuned for more updates!!

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